"While we try to teach our children all about life, our children teach us what life is all about." ~Angela Schwindt~

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Dear Abigail,

Dear Abigail,

Happy Birthday to the sweetest little 2 year old I know!  We are so richly blessed to have you as our daughter and I am just so thankful and honored to call you mine here on Earth.  I pray daily that God will continue to hold, keep, protect and blessed you, and I just tear up when I get to hold you close and think about how God has let me borrow you for a while.  I praise Him because you are fearfully and wonderfully made!  It doesn’t seem like it has been two years since I laid eyes on you for the first time.  I will remember the day I became your mommy like it was yesterday forever.  I laid my eyes on your sweet little face and held you tight.  I never wanted to let you go.  I truly don’t know how I survived before you came along.  You have added so much joy to our lives and I am thankful for everything about you. 

You truly have the sweetest heart and have such care and concern for your friends and family.  You love your bubby so much and when he cries you try to make him feel better by giving him something of yours.  You shower us with hugs, kisses, and just your sweetness every day.  It is hard for me to capture words for my love for you.  I know you will know what I am talking about one day when you hold your children. 

We had a cookie monster birthday party for you today!  You sure love cookie monster – you walk around and say “cookie monster, yum yum yum.”  You live life with such a love and passion.  I love to watch you find joy in laughter, playing, being with friends…  When you laugh you laugh hard, when you cry you cry hard, when you love – you love so much.  It just melts my heart to see you pucker those little lips wanting a kiss from your mommy.  Seeing you is definitely the highlight of my day!  This past year has been amazing and  I just love every moment with you!  I am so thankful God has allowed me to be your mommy!  Happy Birthday!!!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Dear Lucas,

Dear Lucas,

You are 5 ½ weeks old!  I have been off work for 6 weeks now and it is hard to believe that my maternity leave is ½ way over.  I love my days with you.  Right now you are still waking up every 3 hours to eat.  You take your bottles like a pro and wouldn’t miss a meal or show up late for your meal either.  I’m not quite sure what I am going to do with my blonde hair blue eyed boy, with two little dimples.  You are just adorable and I know that you are going to be a heart breaker.

You love to be held.  Right now you are in your daddy’s arms snoozing while he also rests.  You like your swing.  We turn it on high and it has a little mobile and you enjoy watching your friends spin around in circles, aka parrot, monkey and frog.  You have out grown your newborn clothes and wearing size 0-3 months clothing.  It’s hard to believe I have already had to pack up some of your clothes.  I think your favorite spot is in my arms.  You look at me with your eyes wide open like you are studying my face.  We read in the mornings, play with your sissy in the evenings, and you make your little coo noises all day long.  You have learned where your hands and feet are and learning to find your little voice.

I love you so much little man!

Your mommy

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Dear Abigail,

Dear Abigail,

You have grown up so much the past month.  You have become such a loving sweet little girl, who just loves and cares for her brother.  You have adjusted so well to him coming home, and you are such a helper girl with him.  You love to give him kisses and hugs, and for some reason you feel the need to touch his face and head often.  You are loving and gentle towards him and you call him “your bubby”.  You have called him Lucas a couple times, but mostly you call him bubby.

You also right now like to be the center of attention and the life of the party.  We went to our neighborhood cookout and you didn’t know 90 percent of the people there, but you made friends quick wanting to give everyone hugs.  You would walk around while we were eating dinner and just say “hi guys” as loud as you could.  For dinner you had a hotdog and it was off the bun all cut up and had your bun on the side.  I think it is so funny, but you loaded your French fries up on your bun and ate them like a hot dog.  You were very proud of your creation and gobbled it right up.

We’ve created a “good girl board” on our wall for you.  We give you stickers when you get ready well, or pick up your toys, eat your dinner well, or get ready for bed without a fuss.  You are so proud of your board.  You will go to it and point to where it says good girl, and say “good girl, that’s Abby” and then pat your little chest.  You put your stickers up there with such enthusiasm and accomplish.  Once your sticker goes on the board you want us all to clap and call you a good girl, which you are.

You are absolutely obsessed with blue’s clues now.  We DVR them and watch an episode when you get home from daycare.  You walk in, bring me the remote, and ask me to turn it on.  When the episode is over you do the sign language and ask for “more clues”.  Your little eyes just light up when they sing their music to the show and when the clues come on.  You point to the TV and yell, “clue clue”.   So sweet.  

I never knew my heart could love someone as much as I love you.  I love you so incredibly much and it just grows and grows.  I hope you always have such a sweet giving little heart that you do right now.  You are so concerned with the well being of others.  If we sneeze you say bless you, if we cough you ask us if we are “kokay”.  When your bubby cries you look at him with concerns and say, “don’t cry bubby, don’t cry, its kokay”.  I pray for you every day that you resist the evils in this world and love Jesus.  You most definitely love going to church at this time in your life, but it’s not about going to church, it’s about loving Jesus and accepting him as your Lord and savior.  I love you baby girl… You will always be my baby girl. 

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Dear Lucas,

Dear Lucas,

You are here! You are 2 ½ weeks old now and time is already going by so fast. You are eating us out of house and home, about 4 ounces every 4 hours. I tell your daddy that you tell time better than anyone, letting us know exactly when three hours have pasted. You have been to the pediatrician twice now and they say that you are just perfect, which we already knew that. When we took you this past Monday you had already gained 9 ounces.

Our days right now consist of cuddling, sleeping, and eating. You are just precious. You don’t like your pacifier at all and your sister doesn’t understand why you don’t want it. She gives you a lot of hugs and kisses. You are just beautiful. I just sit and stare at you. Your daddy and I both think that you are just perfect. I love you baby boy!

Your Mommy :)

Friday, June 10, 2011

Abigail and Lucas meeting

Nothing brings joy to my heart more than having both of my children together. Jason went and picked Abigail and his mom up to bring them to the hospital yesterday so they could meet Lucas. They all come in the door and I immediately teared up because I haven’t seen my precious Abigail in over 24 hours. It was the first night I had ever spent away from her. I think I had more anxiety about being away from her than about the whole scheduled c section. Jason’s mom is staying with her at our house so I know that she is getting some major attention and spoiling while we were at hospital. We didn’t want Abigail to see me the day of delivery because I didn’t want her to get scared with me still being hooked up to the IV, cath, etc… I wanted to be in my own clothes and able to get out of the bed.

Jason had told her that I had a “boo boo” on my belly and she always wants to kiss my boo boos. Jason carried her in and I was lying on the bed holding Lucas. She looked at him with such wonder and amazement, pointed her little finger at him and said baby, baby. She used her “sweet” voice which is a tone quieter and higher pitched than her normal talking voice. She got to open a few big sister gifts when she got here and enjoyed playing with them. One of her gifts was a coloring book and crayons and she crawled up in my bed and colored with me.

After she played a little while she became more interested in Lucas. She sat with me on the bed and was able to hold him with assistance. She kissed him, hugged him, and talked to him. At one point she was sitting on the couch and Jason was holding Lucas and she offered him her toy. She just laid it beside him and said, “there you go.”

Abigail calls her pacifier “bobby”, were not sure where she got that from. She continued to use the gum drop soothie ones also, which is the ones the hospitals provide. I showed Abigail, Lucas’ “bobby” and asked her if she wanted to give it to him and she just put it in his mouth as gentle as could be. Right after I asked her if she wanted to give him his bobby I thought to myself that I probably should have done that, she would say it was hers, but she gave it to him very willingly.

She got to hold him again with Jason’s help and it just brought tears to my eyes how sweet they were with each other. I know that there are going to be times of jealousy, competition, etc, but these first moments together were so priceless.

Abby and Jason’s mom were able to stay a little more than an hour and when it was time to go she gave kisses all around and told Lucas, “don’t cry, its ok”. She has the sweetest little heart. I’m looking forward to going home tomorrow and start our lives together as a family of four.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Dear Abigail,

It is so hard to capture on paper what I feel in my heart. I just look at you with awe and amazement. I love you more than you will ever know and you have such a way of just making each day perfect. I look forward to you waking up every morning just to see your sweet smiling face. I look forward to hearing you talk to see what you have to say, and just have watched in amazement you growing up to be such a sweet little girl.

We’re still waiting on your baby brother to make his appearance. You still rub on my belly and give “wewas” kisses. You will sometimes stand before my belly and say, “Hey wewas”. I know your going to be a wonderful big sister. You love to play in his room with his toys, and I know that you will be so excited once he is here. I know that you know there is a baby in my belly, but I’m not sure if you realize that he is going to be coming out. You get your little baby doll and stick it under your shirt. I’m a little anxious because our first night away from each other will be when I am in the hospital.

You have such a care and concern for your daddy and me. Whenever we cough or sneeze you come over to us put your sweet little hand on our face and ask us if we are “koo- Kay”. It is one of my favorite words that you say, because you nod your head yes while you say “koo-kay”.

We spend most of our play time reading books, by your choice. You will go back to your room and get as many as you can carry and just sit and listen to every one of them, over and over. I hope that you always like to read. It is one of my favorite times together because you will sit in my lap.

We will work on flash cards together and you have some Dr. Seuss flash cards with colors and shapes on them. Just this evening we went through them all and you got them all right, when we were done you got the stack of cards and held them up and wanted me to anwer them, and after everyone I said you would look at the card and say “good job” in the sweetest cheerful voice. I will most definatley have to get that on video for you to see someday!

I think about you reading these letters I have written to you when you are older, and it makes me tear up to think of you growing up. Each stage of growth you go through makes me just treasure each moment more and more. You have changed so much in this last year, and I know there are just so many more changes to come. I love you baby girl! You will always be my baby girl!



Dear Lucas,

We are getting so excited about your arrival! We had an ultrasound last week and got to see your sweet little face. You scored perfect scores on health and all the tests they did on you. They measured your head, legs, stomach etc, and your development is measuring about 3 weeks ahead. The doctor told me that you are healthy as a horse and I could deliver any day and you would be just perfect.

We are ready for you! Your room is all in place, and I hope you like alligators. Alligator’s isn’t the only theme in there, but you do have several in there now. We had a mural painted on your wall of an Owl, Koala Bear, Monkey and alligator. They are all ready cute and I hope that you like them. You’re Aunt Susan and Grandma is throwing a shower for you on Friday. All the family is so excited about your arrival. I know your big sister is getting excited too. She often will touch my belly and rub it. She calls you “wewas” right now and gives you sweet little kisses.

You are reminding me very frequently that your arrival is soon. You usually wake up around 4 in the morning and start moving around to start your day. I love to lay there in the early mornings and feel you move. I talk to you, sing to you, and rub on my belly just to feel you kick. Your already so precious to my heart.

Well June 8th may be your birthday? I have a feeling that you may come a little earlier than that, however I know that it will be when you are ready. I can’t wait to hold you in my arms! I’ll see you soon!

Your Mommy :)

Thursday, April 07, 2011

Dear Abbyroo

Oh sweet little girl, you have a way to melt my heart like no one else. I took you to daycare the other day and I said “bye” and gave you a big hug and kiss as I left. You puckered up your little lips and I asked if you were ok. You said, “noooo”, I said, “what’s the matter baby girl”, you reached your little arms out and hugged my leg and said “I want my mommy”. Oh how it was hard to go to work that day! I just wanted to take you in my arms and head back to the house.

You have started putting words together really well. Your daddy and I were in your brother’s room putting up curtains and you went to your kitchen and go all your plates, bowls and silver wear and set them in a row with a spoon or fork in each setting, you came up to your daddy and me and said, “come on, let’s eat”. You also say, “I want cookie”, I want bobby”, “I love you”, Where’d it go?”, and many others that don’t come to mind at this moment. It is amazing communicating with you, and your comprehension is a lot better than you getting your thoughts across to us.

You love to wear hair bows and play dress up. You have so many hair bows and a lot of them are hanging on your wall on your hair bow holder. You pick out one and insist I put it in your hair. After I put it on you, you pat your little chest and say, “I pretty”. You love to look at yourself in the mirror and give yourself kisses, and play with your necklaces and bracelets. You also love to wear mommy’s shoes. One of the first things that I do when I get home from work is take off my shoes; I rarely ever wear them in the house. You will get them and try your best to walk around with them on your feet. You do your best with my tennis shoes, your daddy will tie them on you and you just walk so slow and careful. You try to wear my flip flops, but don’t do as well with them. You’re so funny, because you love to wear your socks and shoes in the house. We will be sitting on the couch together and I will ask you if you want me to take them off and you want them back on within 2 minutes. After we get you dressed in the morning you immediately start asking for your socks. I’m not sure what you will do when it stays warm outside and we try and put sandals on you. You’re wearing a lot of short sleeve shirts lately and you try and pull the sleeves down, I think you’re wondering where the sleeve went.

I need to take you to get a haircut and a new pair of tennis shoes this weekend. I want to get your foot measured so they fit you well; we will probably go to the stride rite store and then off to cookie cutters to get your sweet little hair cut. Your hair has grown so much, which it has been about 4 months since we took you for your 1st hair cut. I just don’t want them to cut out your sweet little curls, but it is still growing so much longer in the back than the front. You loved getting your hair cut last time and I hope that you love it just as much this time too.

You have started to get pickier with your food, but you are still such a good eater. You sure love pizza just like your mama. Your other favorite foods are yogurt (any kind), grilled cheese, really any kind of cheese, hamburgers, macaroni and cheese, fish sticks, chicken nuggets, grapes, and bananas. Your no fail food is grilled cheese. If we have something for dinner that you don’t like that is what I fix you and you gobble it right up.

You still like to read more than ever. Right now your favorite book is, Mr. Brown can moo can you? You love to make the noises in the book and you make the cutest little face when you get to the “pop pop pop” page.

You are such a delightful little girl. You seem to enjoy just about everything that you do to the fullest. You laugh hard, smile big, hug tight, and give wet little kisses. Everything about you is just so wonderful. You make me a happier, more joyful person just being around you. I just want to take that feeling you make me feel and bottle it up and hold it close to my heart forever. Your growing up to fast little girl! I’m not sure how much longer you will let me call you Abbyroo. I have a feeling that you’re going to do a lot more growing before your baby brother gets here. You will be a great big sister. You go in his room and just look around right now; I hope that when he comes you feel just as much love and attention as you do now. I never want you to have any less than everything we have to give you. I love you Abbyroo!


You’re Mommy

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Dear Abigail,

Dear Abigail,

I’m sitting beside you right now while you are eating your breakfast watching Handy Manny. Your eating your most favorite breakfast, sausage biscuit, strawberry yogurt and of course your milk that you love to chug. Right now you’re making googly eyes over Handy Manny, one of your most favorite shows, other than your Mater tales DVD.

I had to tell you the hardest thing this past Saturday, that your poppa had passed away. You were asleep when we got the call that they were taking him to the hospital, and your daddy went straight to the hospital and I stayed home with you. Your daddy called and told me that he had passed. I picked you up and held you tight. I sat you on the counter and told you that your poppa was with Jesus now. You looked up at me and wiped my tear and gave me the biggest sweetest hug you have ever given. I know that you are so young and really don’t know what is going on, but you know mommy and daddy are sad. The past few days you have been extra sweet, given extra hugs and kisses. You are such a special little girl.

We never want you to forget your poppa, you were one of his favorite people, and his grandchildren were the light of his life. Poppa was also one of your most favorite people. You always went straight to his lap when they came over to the house. He would always take you outside and you all had some special times together, walking around the block, riding on his shoulders, sitting in his lap to share a book, and of course showing off your new tricks that you have learned. You loved him so much and he loved you all the more.

Your Nana has come over the past few days and when she comes in you just shrug your shoulders in wonder where Poppa is. I just want you to know that he is with Jesus and you will see him again someday.

We went to the visitation last night and you stayed at home with Darwin and Cathy. They said that you were just the perfect little angel. This is only the third time we have left you somewhere and gone somewhere without you. Darwin said that you all had a big ole time playing in the floor just laughing at him wearing your purple fuzzy hat. About 4:00 this morning you started crying for mommy and daddy, I think that you missed us and just wanted to see us. It’s hard when someone else puts you to bed at night. When I got home last night I just went beside your crib and just stroke your sweet little face and told you I loved you.

The pictures below are some of my favorite with you and your Poppa. You can tell by the look in his face how much he loved you. Last night at the visitation, about everyone we talked about said that he was always talking about you. I love you Abbyroo!



Thursday, March 10, 2011

Dear Lucas,

Dear Lucas,

Oh my goodness we are getting excited for your arrival! I feel you move inside of me everyday and just can’t wait to lay my eyes on your sweet little face and hold you in my arms. I know your sister, Abby is getting excited too. Each night she rubs my belly and we talk about you. She always tries to lift up my shirt and look for you, so I don’t know if she quite understands that you will be here in just a couple of short months! She tries so hard to say Lucas, “Wuwas”.

This evening we were sitting on the couch and I felt you move and I put Abby’s hand on my belly, and you kicked and she looked at me. She immediately put her hand back, so I know she felt you! I don’t know if she knew it was you or not, but she felt something.

We almost have your room cleared out and all of your furniture we ordered has come in, its just a matter of painting and getting your room set up! Were having all of your nursery d├ęcor made by a friend, and can’t wait for it to come in!

I love you Lucas! Can’t wait until June sweet little man :)